Yesterday morning, we sat down in church, and David said something to me, and I heard a lower tone in his voice that surprised me. It wasn't his normal voice, but it was definitely lower than I'd heard in a long time. It lasted for awhile, but then got more scratchy, but it does seem to have improved a little. Our neighbors last night, who had talked to us a few days ago, commented on the improvement last night.
This morning, he woke up with the good lower tones again. And I'm thinking, "Please, God, please let this be You healing him." It feels like we've had one delay after another on him getting the shot in his vocal cord to make him sound more like his old self, and I'm hoping that that is because the Lord wants to heal him first. He saw a new specialist at Chapel Hill literally the morning after we moved in here. That doctor was singing my tune that he didn't need the additional test that the dr. in DC had recommended, and he set up a time for David to get the shot on Aug. 6. That still seemed like really far away to us at the time, and I was impatient about another delay, but maybe it has a purpose. I'm hoping for that, anyway...
David and I are looking at this situation, and we are realizing that it has good humbling properties for us. When you're just off of a Supreme Court clerkship, the world is your oyster. There are many people out there lining up to throw ridiculous sums of money at you if you'll come to work for them. I don't say this to be prideful, but to explain why we may have needed this humbling experience. We don't want to be in danger of forgetting that it is the Lord that lifts up. We were very aware of that when David got the clerkship.
David is a very hard worker, and he did make great grades at UVA, but he wasn't the top student in his class, and there were plenty of other people that he knew just as deserving or more deserving of the honor than he was. We were in awe that the Lord had put David where He did. But after a year of being around a large group of the smartest young legal minds in the country, maybe we were beginning to feel more entitled. I don't know; maybe it was a danger for us. So, right before the clerkship ended, David got a difficult and embarrassing impediment handed to him that could potentially hamper his legal career in unforeseen ways. At the least, it made him feel less desirable and singled out as somehow less than the others. And I felt humbled with him. We are both very aware now of how quickly things can turn from great to precarious. We are humbled by our own weaknesses and by the fragility of all situations in this life.
Please pray for David. Pray for his healing, and please pray for wisdom for us. We don't want to get this shot prematurely if the Lord is healing him in other ways. Please pray that it would be clear what we need to do.