There's a video making the rounds on YouTube these days where an experienced mother of two boys reads and letter and shows pictures of her little boys growing up. She concludes by wishing that she'd found more joy in the ordinary days when her boys were little... taking a walk, picking a flower, pushing on a playground swing.
I thought about it, and I realize that I don't think I'll have that regret when my boys are packing up to head off to college. I really have sincerely savored these ordinary days. Maybe infertility gives me a greater appreciation than I would've had otherwise because there were days when I honestly thought I'd never have this. So I get grumpy like anyone else, and I spend too much time on the computer, like lots of other women I know. But I also drink deeply in the moment. I know there will be days when I want this back. I just hope I remember it well...
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